Let’s be honest for
just a second. We have all done some pretty fucked up shit that we regret.
Maybe you've gotten drunk and hooked up with some stranger you had only just
met. You find yourself asking, “Well, was it at least good? Was it worth it?”
No, it probably was completely terrible. Why would you think this? Because you
don’t even remember what happened. Were you that
drunk? No, he just couldn't contain himself and finished before your mind
could even begin to process that something was happening.
Or maybe your regret
comes in the form of talking to someone you thought was absolutely beautiful.
She stood there, in the back of the bar, long blond hair flowing past her
slender shoulders, like an ocean of gold meeting the sandy shore. You couldn't help but notice the hazel eyes, curious and bold. She looked up at you, only to
look away, revealing her pearly, crowded teeth. Her presence radiated with a
soft glow, and it drew you in. You took the first steps, and you risked your
dignity. You plunged yourself into new territory. Eye contact was made, and she
smiled. You felt a spark, the hair on your arms stood, electrified. And you
thought to yourself, “something great is about to start.”
Turns out she’s batshit
crazy. She touches your arm, and whispers, “I love your skin.” You don’t know what to fucking do as she goes on
about her time in the Appalachian mountains, making moonshine. She tells you
about the time she held a séance for her dead hermit crab, Robert. You look
around for help, but you know you’re stuck for at least fifteen more minutes.
How about that time you
bought $40 boots at Target? You did find out that there’s a shoemaker in your
town who will reattach shoe soles. For $40.
Today, I decided I
needed some kind of caffeine. I went to a crappy little café and ordered a Chai
latte, and completely ignored the young man who asked for my name three times.
I was summoned to pick up my beverage and soon discovered that they had
forgotten the chai in my chai latte. This would normally be fine, but something
prevented me from fully enjoying the coffee I had purchased: it was disgusting.
Coffee, and all drink
related to coffee, are incredibly vital in ensuring the quality of life of an
individual. Given shitty coffee, the individual will respond negatively, and
their whole day can potentially be ruined. Coffee is the oil for the gears of
society. It is important.
I drank the shitty
coffee.
“You didn't know the
coffee was going to be terrible,” you might say. No, in reality I did know. But
I took the risk and I made a pretty bad decision. Do I regret it? Absolutely.
Did I learn from this mistake? Probably not. Let’s face it, we often don’t
learn from our mistakes. Something compelled us to make the original awful
decision, and that same compulsion will likely manifest itself in us again. We
are flawed creatures, forever destined to repeat mistakes. It’s unfortunate,
but it’s bound to happen. Maybe it means we are hopeful. Or maybe it just means
we’re morons. Either way, mistakes are made, regret is created, and we are
forced to live with our decisions and their consequences. But hey, it isn't all
bad. After all, these regrets and mistakes give us something to talk about when
we’re sitting around in a crappy little cafe, drinking our disgusting coffee.